After All These Years

Shit. I came back here and noticed that many of you still keep me in your 'list', as in the list that shows my blog post whenever I update my ramblings. And then there is a handful of blogs on my list that failed to keep up with the blogging trend, died and resurrected as cesspools of ads and one of them even turned into a uh... um... recipe blog?

Never mind that. I'm talking to all of you who still believe that I will one day update this Internet journal. What were you thinking? I'm gone. I've moved on with my life. Now I'm an adult with responsibilities - if I could call them that. I'm now a tuition teacher, working from Thursday to Sunday, who occasionally gets paid writing factoids for Cracked.com (an American humour website) just to pay off my newly bought apartment. At the same time, I'm also doing Masters in Universiti Putra Malaysia. I'm doing Masters of Arts in English. I'm writing a thesis on Malaysian stand-up comedy. I doubt I'll ever graduate. Oh, and I've got a girlfriend who is three years older than me. I'm planning to marry that girl some time next year because I think my feeling for her is real. 

At 4 in the morning I felt the need to come back here and re-read some of my past writings and boy, do I suck. But I do feel like coming back here. I don't know why. Maybe it's the pressure I've been facing in these three years of absence. Maybe I want to come back because I miss the years where I have the time to sit around and let my mind wander. But then some of you may not even know me anymore. You only keep me in your list because you couldn't be arsed to change your templates. But if I do return, I will have to change my writing style. I'll probably have to take up another topic to write about. I don't want to write about my personal life. As you know, adult life is mundane. I do the same thing and eat the same thing every day.

Let me think about what to write about the next time I come back, if I come back. I'm thinking of starting a recipe blog.

A Sudden Realization

Shit, I got a blog!

Death

"You might be humble,
you might have grace.
But everyone's equal,
In Death's embrace."

"08-11" Finally Reaches The Dead End

I had been keeping a journal all this while and I named it recently: "08-11". Got it since 2008 and began writing my visions and reminiscence on it and ended it in 2011. Looking back at it shows how immature I used to be and how different a person I had become. I used to be so radical in my first few entries and gradually, I became a little softer.

I should say I am grateful for my past actions to not just tear away the pages if it doesn't suit my thinking anymore. It's good to keep my mistakes in "08-11".

I ranted about religious issues, moral issues and even political issues from 2008 to 2009. Stopped my writing along the year and began again in 2010. Few entries did changed my life. As a tribute for this trusty keepsake of mine, I will include some of the most interesting excerpts found within the vaults of "08-11".



"Don't be afraid if you had been stepped on for your stages of mistakes. You can be sure that once you step out of your mistakes, you will fly above those who once stepped on you." - Butterfly, 25 October 2009.

"I promise that I'll win this war, for my family and for God." - Redeeming My Life, 9 December 2009.

"We can never appreciate the works of art the same way as how the creator did." - Literature, 13 August 2010.

"You don't continue your game of poker with small hands with no pairs. You don't love if you know eventually you're going to break up." - The Art of Folding, 20 April 2011.

"There are no good or bad endings, just the survival of our souls." - How a Good Ending Should Be, 18 May 2011.

"So, goodbye for now, my fellow readers. I am sure you will see me again." -The Final Step of My First Endeavour (Last Entry), 24 July 2011.

The First Roll

Attention, Sir Pok Deng. The Holga 135BC photos that you had requested is finally here!


Analogue Love

Description: This is by far my favourite photo. If you noticed, there's half frame of light leak and a photo of a yawning cat in the cage. Actually this was not intended, but sometimes unexplainable things happen with Holga.

Yellow Beetle

Description : Nothing much to say about this one, really. Walked around the neighbourhood and snapped this up. Went against multi-exposing it, and I had never regretted the results.

Signboard

Description : Shot this in anger when I realized I didn't wind the film roll properly, causing the whole 36 shots in the roll to be wasted.

Not bad for my first roll of Lomography CN 400. So far, the thing that I've learned is: Never shoot Holga indoors unless you have a flash unit. Nuff said.

For more photos, visit: Bodography's Analogue Love

Holga 135bc

Just got myself a Holga 135bc! Don't disturb, I'm still celebrating my holidays with this baby. =P

Roaming The Streets

For this semester break, my parents promised to bring us out for a trip somewhere. And true enough, they kept to their words. We roamed the night streets at Jonker Street, Malacca when I was inspired to capture some street photographs with my new Prime Nikkor Lens 35 mm. Not having enough guts to capture people in almost point blank range (it's 35 mm, after all), I kinda failed at getting any good portraits of total strangers.


Lubitel 2



Description : Found this little baby in a second hand stall. In case you didn't know, this is a 60 years old TLR (Twin Reflex Lens) Camera and my brother had always wanted one of these. It was sold for RM150 there. Not having enough money that time, I asked permission from the vendor to take a photo of this before parting with it, giving up the chance to own it forever.



Siblings



Description : Sometimes, focusing too much on capturing photos during your holiday trip ruins your best memories of the trip. It is better to make memories than to record memories.


Stranded



Description : We were sitting in our car, waiting for the traffics to subside when I spotted this car stranded on the road. Having nothing to do at the time, I snapped it up. It was nothing good when I look at the LCD screen that time. But after I plugged my SD card into my laptop and began cropping it, I see a glimpse of perfection. Edited a little to make it look vintage, it is indeed a pretty sight! What a beautiful mistake.


Well, nothing much had happened during this semester break except coaching the KISAS drama team and also this trip to Malacca. Well, I'm looking forward for the semester to start already.