Little Specky

It is sometimes fun to relate stories about Little Specky to my friends. And from what I see, they enjoyed listening to me too. This is what friendship is about, right? We share our stories.

Specky is a girl that I once fell in love with in high school. I was inspired to call her this based on her spectacles. Before I move on, I want some of you from my high school to stop smart-guessing about who she really is. There are more than hundreds of students wearing glasses in my school.

When I first met her, I was totally attracted to her active and outgoing personality. Not many girls that I know have this kind of personality. Most girls are just too prima donna and emotional. Little Specky have totally changed my perception on love and girls. It got me thinking about her 15 hours a day. Like what Dottie had mentioned in my previous entry, I've become 'angau'. I fell in love.

My friends were bored to listen to my preaching about how good she really is. I was in the same 'club' with her in my school, which makes me easier to approach and know her. And my trouble had gone deeper each day. She possessed a habit to say 'hi' as loud as you can expect whenever she saw me walking by the school corridors, which made me blush as what my friends say I am. And they often tried to insinuate to her that I am hiding somewhere near her. So much for being good friends with them. There were once when she played 'hide and seek' with me in the school corridors just to say 'hi'. Ah, the good old days. Just too sweet to forget.

It is then when I said to my friends that I had given up on her because I'm a realist. There's no way a guy like me could make her love me. Despite what her attitude she had shown to me, I admit I have low confidence in a thing called love.

After I finished my SPM, I vowed not to keep in touch with her anymore. My friend had once said, "you've got the green light, but you just won't move your car, isn't it?"

Whenever I have the mood to become active and outgoing, it reminds me of her.